About as much intelligence as Chazz's left nipple.

I AM SO PISSY RIGHT NOW.

...Well that's not the right word, I guess I want to say frustrated. :/ About two things.

# 1.

First of all the project. I'm sorry to go on about it for like the zillionth time but...in a few minutes, Amy should be here and we'll finish our stupid poster. I think I have typed up more than enough to go on it, I made two little graphs - that's gotta be all. I can't imagine how much more we need (well, I have to analyze 2 little things, but seeings how I've gotten used to it I can have it done in 5 minutes while she puts the other info on).

I e-mailed Chelsea and Chad to tell them of the final meeting time. Chad didn't reply, and I don't see him here. And this is RICH.

I must confess: I HAVE NEVER SEEN AN ACTUAL LINE OF EXCUSES FROM A PERSON'S MOUTH.

I bumped into Chelsea in the hallway.

Me: *Explaining what we've done and come tonight to finish it*
Chelsea: *Immediate* I can't.
Me: Why?
Chelsea: My boyfriend is my ride, and he needs the truck tonight, we almost went off the road they should have closed school!!!
Me: *You lazy prick, the roads are fine today* Well just call him and ask him to pick you up a little later.
Chelsea: I don't have a phone!
Me: There's a free one right in Vail ^^
Chelsea: ...*Silence* But he needs to drive his mom to the store!
Me: Well maybe he can take her first and then come get you =D
Chelsea: No, he can't.
Me: Why not?
Chelsea: *Silence, mumbling* The roads are supposed to be WICKED bad tonight.
Me: No, they said all the snow would stop by this afternoon, and it has.
Chelsea: I'm so tired D:

Then people came up the stairs so I like ran up them and was like "See you later -_-"

I e-mailed the proffessor. Amy and I will talk to him in the morning. I feel like a horrible, asshole tattletale but when I've been stressing out over this project and they haven't done anything? We've kept them VERY up to date. I don't think they get what the class entails. Chelsea is nice but..I keep feeling like she should not be in that class. It's Wildlife and Bio, a HIGH level science course, and she's an eduacation major. I'd tried to help her with the work and stuff, except tests, and she gets so much lower than me. It's fine that she can't grasp the concepts, we all have shit we don't understand, but my question remains: Why is she in that class?

I think she's going to find that not everyone buys the "I'm tired" and "I have soooo much work" excuses for much longer. :/

#2.

This coming Sunday is the tree decorating at Keith's. His brother Kevin will be there, and Kevin's girlfriend Keri.

Now for those of you who don't know, Keri and I used to be bestest friends ever, but after she started dating Kevin she kind of ignored her friends, including me. The nicer people were able to forgive me, but I always held a grudge about it, and well..I won't get into it, but long story short we both did things, then tried to resolve it, and then when Ginger died and she didn't show up, and didn't e-mail me back, I gave up and didn't send her anything else. I didn't see the point, and I guess she didn't either.

So we went from best friends to not even friends anymore, I'm still mad at her when I think about it, I dunno if she's still mad at me or what.

So Sunday will be awkward. At first I was gonna wimp out and not go, scared of feeling awkward, or somehow causing a fight, although if we don't talk to each other and give each other space, I don't see how that could happen. So I've kind of built myself up to just stop being nervous and just go and try to enjoy myself. The decorating/mini Christmas party at Keith's is something I cherish, I get to be with him and his family, and Kyle is there too usually.

But Keith doesn't want me to go.

So basically, if I go, two people feel uncomfortable, probably Keri, and then Keith. I don't know about Kevin. I'm not concerned about Keri since that's just the way it'll be, but Keith telling me he doesn't want me there absolutely freakin sucks. So even if I suck it up and go and behave perfectly, he'll probably bite my head off the entire time because he doesn't want a fight. I might "ruin Christmas".

He wants me to e-mail Keri or something before this weekend and try to talk about things even if I have to be fake. And..that's not something I am prepared to do right now. I've got nothing against building basic bridges back, but I'd want it to be mutual, and I doubt it is judging by things others have told me :/ . Maybe if we get thrown in the same room we can come out fine, but...but..none of this online shit is gonna work. And I refuse to be fake, because I hate that so so much.

The point is, if this friendship were to be fixed ever, it wouldn't be before this weekend, not at all.

So....I don't know what to do. I'm sure co-existing, even if awkward as hell, will be okay. Tabitha, a girl in the Critic office, said that's the way family holidays are: In-laws, ex's, usually a nice array of people who don't really like, or even hate each other, but they get through it. She said she doesn't like her son's father at all, but she still has to see him for gatherings and is polite.

*Sigh* It's still a crapfest.
The million dollar question:

Should I go, and possibly..ruin Christmas? Or stay home and focus on other amusements?



Oh well.

I want to watch Rudolph tonight. I will leave here at 7:30. It's 6:25, and Amy was supposed to meet me at 6:00. Yay -_- Well, since I don't know how to use Powerpoint to make a poster, I'm sending her all the information and telling her there's all the stuff, now do it your damn self.

Even if she gets here soon, I'm not giving up anymore of my time so she can stay and work alone on it. Hell, I've been working alone on this thing for days now.

Little things to look forward to after homework:

BoG RP
BoG fanfiction
I downloaded like 150 BoG screenshots someone was nice enough to put on the community so icons and mood theme, heyooooo!
I might color a picture

Sleep.

...Ugh. I'm so stressed, my stomach kind of hurts.