Music

So well..Uh I dunno. I'm trying to get back to normal. Not happening to smoothly here.

I spent this weekend at Sarah and Joey's. It was fun. I was emo more than I'd like to admit but they helped me feel better. I feel bad I didn't get Sarah anything for her birthday. Well, I can still do a belated gift, in any case.

Um...saw movies. Hot Fuzz was okay, The Protector was another Kung Fu type movie that bored me and...Mr. and Mrs. Smith I had seen before but damn Angelina is hot in that movie.

I've had on Ginger's collar all weekend. ..Yes, her collar. And I'm taking her paw-patterned blankey as well. Mom's washing it...I know we have to but I don't want to. She told me to take another whiff of Ginger before she washes it. I wish I'd thought to get a clip of her fur but, an oppurtunity stupidly wasted, I guess. Oh well, I'm keeping the dog collar/tags as is.

We'll get her ashes this week. I don't know how I'll react. Some people said I might feel closure, but I think it'll be the intro to another day of bawling, personally. At least we'll have them though. I've felt pretty weird since Friday like I'm in a horrible daze. My whole mind is just...blank. I'm trying to process the fact that she physically is not here anymore. I've been petting Locke and even though it sounds really bad I've been distant with him too with this whole stupid "it's not Ginger" thought process. I've been looking at her picture all night too. It's...I dunno. My mind is blank, as I said. From the outside looking in. It's like something huge has ended, like a huge chapter to my life, which I guess is true.

Anyway...I know I owe some replies to people, as in comments to entries, replies to e-mails, stuff like that. I'll get to them, maybe. I've answered comments to the entry I made Friday and doing small chats online but otherwise I find it hard to process simple responses.

I'm trying to get into the swing of things so I decided to do one of those music memes since they're fun.

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